I wish I wasn't apologising
..and say that this time I'm committed to this blog but wow - Managing online spaces is difficult. When I started this blog it was solely that. Then we added YouTube in the mix - I just about managed.
Now imagine all the other platforms that we predominantly frequent and well..it's hard. I tend to pour more into the cups that are giving more in return. Which is sad for this space. However I do find myself here from time to time.
I have started 2025 as softly as possible. I didn't even fill you in with how I ended 2024. Let's just say with a furry companion. I'm sure many of you have seen my fluff who has well and truly taken over my life, in the best way possible. My four legged friend has taught me more about love, patience and forgiveness than I thought possible. It's really taken me out of my own head and instead of focusing on my own chaotic thoughts, I now fill my thoughts with him and I spend more time on Pomeranian reddit - than I'd like to admit.
It's now mid-ish February and I feel like I'm embracing the fact that we are in 2025. I ran my first run of the year this week which felt good. I'd been initially putting it off because of Chai and leaving him alone, then it became a bit of an excuse. Also in my defence - if you're in the UK you will know how ridiculously cold and miserable it's been - I'd take pup cuddles and my electric blanket over running in a heartbeat. However in doing so, I was neglecting my own mental well being. I spoke about how running changed my life in 2024 - I didn't think I'd ever be able to run and in fact I finished the year at a total running distance of 700km. Huge accomplishment. Greatness really is on the other side of those comfort zones.
I've been feeling a lot of nostalgia lately, for this blog and the community I've grown over the years. Sometimes I forget however my recent Instagram reels on MAC lipstick nostalgia really made me realise how many of you have been with me for so long. Maybe that's what has prompted this blogpost.
There's always so much I want to share and then it's the ADHD that prevents me, I forget - I loose focus and then I spiral in a feeling of overwhelm and task paralysis. By the way I didn't update you on here. I got formally diagnosed with ADHD at the end of year. While it was a relief that finally I could label what I've put down to me just being me and too complex of an individual it has also brought me so much sadness because I just can't help but think my life and the choices I've made may have been significantly different.
Ok so this has just turned into a diary entry but hello and welcome to 2025 MouldyFruit - I hope this isn't the first and the last post of the year but we're here right now so let's embrace this present moment.
Got to go - this teething puppy of mine has just woken up and apparently he doesn't like my fingers clicking at the laptop - AH MOM life.
To anyone who's reading this
I see you - I appreciate you
Love and light. always.