Chapter 37

 

37.. Not quite sure how that happened but here we are! 

I celebrated my 37th birthday last Friday and I find birthdays strange. I always get a little too reflective around this time and it had me thinking about where my life is vs. where I had anticipated it to be. I know that I am my own worst enemy and I'm so self critical. A lot of which I'm learning has to do with undiagnosed ADHD (More on that soon!)

This year felt particularly odd, I was looking forward to going away for my birthday as I usually do but was let down a week before by a friend. I then got sick and unfortunately did my back in - Nothing says OLD age like, 'Doing your back in'! Health has been a struggle for me over the last few years. Some of you may know that I was diagnosed with a brain slip - which essentially means the lower part of my brain is compressing on my spine. It's been years of MRI's and hospital visits, when my back becomes an issue it triggers the fear within me that something more complex is going on. 

The pain subsided and I managed to enjoy a low-key, yet wholesome birthday with the people closest to me. I also recorded a podcast episode to celebrate my 37th year around the sun and decided to share 37 things I'd tell my younger self, or anyone else out there who can at times find themselves to be sensitive, self critical or just not where they expected to be. 

I wanted to include it here.. 

I would also like to thank many of you for your well wishes, it is always greatly appreciated. 

Sending you all much love 

Z.x